A Derisory Self-Analysis

So I’ve been reading the Boogiepop light novels as of late and it’s got me thinking about self-hatred, narcissism and radical alterity. There was a time I wanted to be a counsellor, because I thought being exceedingly depressed was a good foundation for connecting with others. I don’t think I could do that now, simply because it disgusts me too much … More A Derisory Self-Analysis

Exit Bag Out

Awhile ago, I had been at a party. I’d listened to someone talk about Kate Moss for ten minutes straight. I left the room, found my flatmate and asked why anyone was interested in anything at all. We’d come up with no answers. All this started a month ago, and all that started long before. I will not … More Exit Bag Out

Kill Yourself

Barbiturate is one of the few drugs capable of killing you painlessly, so of course the state has banned it. Instead we get paracetamol, a shitty over-the-counter painkiller that leaves you in pain for up to five days while your liver and kidneys shut down. Suicide prevention is a fucking joke. Secular appropriations of Christian … More Kill Yourself

Finitude, Death and the False Gods of Creation: Power and the Subject in Nietzsche and Althusser

Caught in becoming, the subject never becomes. The animal, sunken in immanence, knows only existence as species-being. As a philosophical concept, the animal represents reproduction, the infinite repetition of the same … More Finitude, Death and the False Gods of Creation: Power and the Subject in Nietzsche and Althusser

Suītopī

His arm circling round her waist. Maybe . . . A blare. Sweat of traffic. Muggy afternoon. The sun bounces off every surface, paints the surroundings white. I stand at the corner of the street, feel the pavement seep through my soles. Sesame drifts from the marketplace; cheap soba, oil and soy. A cat stretches on the neighbour’s roof, white fur … More Suītopī

A Selfless Suicide

Selfishness is an attribute often applied to suicide victims, with weakness quick to follow. Ending one’s life seems to contribute more to a person’s reputation than their entire existence beforehand. There is a seething sense of ownership behind the visage of friendship. A ravenous desire beneath the veneer of betrayal … More A Selfless Suicide

The Spectre of Bond

A spectre is haunting Spectre—the spectre of James Bond. All the powers of reason have entered a holy alliance to exorcise this spectre, but it is a haunt that rests in the fabric of this franchise, a totalising essence that cannot be shaken, only stirred. It is apt we open with the out of context … More The Spectre of Bond

The Witcher and the Root of all Suffering

In every curse, hope and despair exist in equal measures, for it is yearning that births both. Unstable desire leads to feelings of entitlement, and when this entitlement is denied, hope turns to despair. In The Witcher, those who utter curses, are those who cannot accept this absurdity. They have tried to realise their ideals, … More The Witcher and the Root of all Suffering

Evangelion and our Indelible Loneliness

In one of my favourite episodes of Neon Genesis Evangelion, Lelial, a higher dimensional being whose shadow exists in the third dimension, traps Shinji within itself. Darkness stretches eternally all around him, and I cannot help but think this event is an allegory for our inescapable loneliness. The series posits that the core human … More Evangelion and our Indelible Loneliness